The thing that I always wanted was to be free.
I come from a very strict household where I didn’t feel like I could be myself?… Sometimes this can come as a surprise, I hate to tell stories about my childhood because it looks like I’m complaining. Because I had a good childhood, a happy one. And I’m not ungrateful.
Me speaking my internal experience of it… it helps. If it doesn’t help anyone else, it helps me.
Every time I tell a story I feel liberated, I see the story changing and the meaning of it changing too… I am creating a new meaning.
I wasn’t free? How?
Because I was free in many ways… If I wanted to learn something, my parents would take me to take that class, and buy all the things… they supported all my ADHD interests (I didn’t know this at that time)… I used to say: I wish they made me stay at something… Because I quit everything that I started… Is quit the right word? I explored a lot of things… and I changed my interests a lot of times… I explored until I felt interested. Is that quitting? Was I committed?
Look at me… “I wished they made me” when I’m saying they didn’t let me be… xD
One is funny that way.
I was intense and independent, and too much… I always wanted to do things, start things, be places… and I wanted to be free to do whatever I wanted when I wanted… (doesn’t every kid?) Like they know anything! I didn’t know then that I was a Manifestor…
I know I’m dropping labels… ADHD, MANIFESTOR… Believe me, I hate being defined by a label… restricted or even excused… But sometimes, labels just makes us understand something we know but we can’t put words into (like Astrology, more of that another day).
The thing is, of course, kids and teens cannot be let to do whatever they want… But I deeply felt affected by this. I just shrank. All my manifestor power, intensity, and creative energy were pushed down. Because I couldn’t… I had to ask for permission for everything and had to try to convince others of the things that I wanted and it became a habit… To not start things, to ask for permission, to stay small… because the thing you want is disturbing us.
UGH, this took a weird route. I wanted to talk about our values, and how important they are in living a life that’s authentic and intentional. Getting clear on my values was the second thing I did when I was on this journey of remembering myself (without knowing of course) so much of what I think I know now, comes in retrospect… The first thing I did was a Future You Meditation.
So, values. As you may noticed, I value freedom a lot.
I value authenticity, creativity, curiosity, courage, love…
And why is it so important to know what you value? Don’t we know without having to name them or define them? I guess we inherently know. Because all of the decisions that we make are based on our values… And how we feel about our lives is related to how aligned those decisions are with our values.
If at the moment, you don’t like how your life is looking or feeling, zoom in, and look closer, you will notice that one or more of your values are being ignored, crossed, completely
My life is good when I can have the freedom to do with my time what I want.
My life is good when I can create and express myself creatively.
My life is good when I can be authentically myself without feeling shame: Yes intense, yes speaking too much and too loud, yes laughing hard!
My life is good when I can learn and dive deep with curiosity into every topic that calls my attention.
My life is good when I take courageous action in the direction of my desires, that are divinely driven…
My life is good when I can passionately do what I love, teach what I know, and express all the love that I feel…
If you are a bit lost, in discovering your values… ask yourself these questions:
- What is the thing that I have always wanted to feel?
- In what kind of things/experiences do you spend your money?
- What do you spend a lot of time doing?
- If you think of the pivotal moments of your life/career, what values defined them? What was present for you at that moment?
Is good to know your values, you can use them as a north star, as a filter, and as a decision-maker, as a thermostat of how is your life.
If you are like me, and sometimes making things happen can feel hard… You procrastinate or whatever it is… Knowing your values, and attaching this goal, project, or outcome to one of them… it’s going to help you fuel your energy to make it happen.
Some people are not motivated by money.
Or by external factors…
Some of us need internal drive and motivation.
What better way than to know what matters to us?
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