I don’t care why you think you are worthless, I’m here to remind you that you are WORTHY, just as you are right now, without needing to do anything to prove it.
I don’t care why you think you are not good enough, I’m here to remind you that you DO have a unique contribution that you bring to the world, and that contribution does make a difference.
I don’t care why you think you are unlovable, I’m here to remind you that you are LOVELY.
I know that you think is easy for me to say… Because at the end of the day, I’m feeling good, I like myself and my life, I have family and friends that love and support me… I’m creating the career that I want, I can keep going on… But that’s not the point.
Yes, it’s easy for me to say now, because before I couldn’t see it, I couldn’t feel it, I couldn’t believe it.
I know how dark it is… I know how you can’t see a way out… I know that you feel alone in the world, invisible because although people look at you they don’t SEE you, don’t understand you, don’t relate…
I want you to know, it doesn’t matter how bad you think it is… if you are still here, you can come back from it.
I know you are tired, you don’t have the strength or even the motivation to do anything… If you are still here, you can take just one step. One tiny action.
I know you don’t see the point because everything is doomed and it does not matter… If you are still here, YOU matter.
Because I don’t know how you got here, how I got here, but we did.
I don’t know why, but here we are.
I’m not saying to have a BIG life… but have a life. A life you want to live, a life you want to wake up to, a life that feels good, a life you don’t want to escape from…
I know it looks so far ahead, so out of reach like an alternative reality… But believe me, is so much closer than you think. You do have to believe that is possible though.
So forgive yourself, for bringing you to this point where you don’t see a way out. For abandoning yourself and your dreams… For living a life that looked good but felt wrong… For trying so hard and still failing… For settling, for being so afraid you didn’t take action… For doing things you feel ashamed now…
Bring those shadows, stop hiding them, they are part of your journey… Don’t make them bigger by denying them, by judging them…
It’s good to have a successful life, whatever that means… but it’s better to live a joyful one, whatever that means.
Have you forgotten?
For me, it was these tiny moments… I thought I needed something grandiose to get me out, to bring me back… but it was the tiny things:
- Speaking my shame.
- Asking for help.
- Crying.
- Floating in the ocean.
- Laughing hard about silly things.
- Moving my body.
- A good night of sleep.
- Remembering that the people that love me, don’t love me because of the things that I DO… they love me because of WHO I AM.
So how can I let the things that I’m doing or not doing define me? When I am so much more.
So, I want you to remember: it matters that you are here.
There IS a way out, and although you don’t see it now, you will.
There is MORE than one way out. Harder to believe… but true nonetheless. Once you see one way, you can see more ways…
You CAN get out. I know because you are still here, you can do hard things, you have done difficult things…
It matters that you are here. It matters that I am here. It matters that we are here.
This is a message to my past self.
And I hope, if you need words of comfort, these can reach you, at the right time (kairos timing).
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